No catchy title this time folks...

I'm kind of beside myself right now. Certain members of my family have been less than thrilled about Shy's arrival. But I told myself that once she was here things would change. They've gotten worse.

Smasher went for a visit to my grandparent's on Thursday and the rest of us joined him on Saturday. Now, my grandparent's and Smash are extremely close. I understand that and don't want them to feel like they have to ignore Smash. I certainly don't. I feel like I divide my time pretty evenly. But since we arrived the other night my grandmother has spent a total of five minutes with Shy. My granddad has even held her longer than that and he's terrified of babies. He acknowledges she's there at least. My grandmother doesn't even do that. She just continues to play with Smash (which is great) and ignores the rest of us. I've tried to spend a lot of time with Smash while we're here but when you're trying to hang out with him and he's with someone who won't even talk to you, it's awkward, so I've retreated back to the back bedroom and decided to camp here until The Hubby and my granddad come back from the farm.

I'm just trying to figure out what happened. She didn't act this way when Smasher was a newborn. She won't say anything to me except to tell me what I should do with Smash and she's hardly said two words to The Hubby and won't even look at him. I guess it just really hurts because we used to be really close. I've been so close to tears this entire weekend because I know that one day I'm going to have to explain to one of my kids why the other one gets so much more attention from her than she does. I know Shy won't remember this weekend but I will. Shy didn't do anything wrong. She was just born. If my grandmother is so disappointed in me or ashamed of Shy, I wish she would have just told me or at the very least say they were busy this weekend. Then I wouldn't have wasted the gas money to get down here. Silly me, I thought she'd want to meet her great-granddaughter. I guess I was wrong. I won't make that mistake again. And honestly, if this is the way things are going to be, then maybe Smash doesn't need to come visit anymore either. I hate to say that because he loves it down here and he is really close to my grandmother and I know my granddad would miss him and he hasn't done anything wrong but I'm not going to let any of my family play favorites with my kids. You either love them both or neither of them.