No catchy title this time folks...

I'm kind of beside myself right now. Certain members of my family have been less than thrilled about Shy's arrival. But I told myself that once she was here things would change. They've gotten worse.

Smasher went for a visit to my grandparent's on Thursday and the rest of us joined him on Saturday. Now, my grandparent's and Smash are extremely close. I understand that and don't want them to feel like they have to ignore Smash. I certainly don't. I feel like I divide my time pretty evenly. But since we arrived the other night my grandmother has spent a total of five minutes with Shy. My granddad has even held her longer than that and he's terrified of babies. He acknowledges she's there at least. My grandmother doesn't even do that. She just continues to play with Smash (which is great) and ignores the rest of us. I've tried to spend a lot of time with Smash while we're here but when you're trying to hang out with him and he's with someone who won't even talk to you, it's awkward, so I've retreated back to the back bedroom and decided to camp here until The Hubby and my granddad come back from the farm.

I'm just trying to figure out what happened. She didn't act this way when Smasher was a newborn. She won't say anything to me except to tell me what I should do with Smash and she's hardly said two words to The Hubby and won't even look at him. I guess it just really hurts because we used to be really close. I've been so close to tears this entire weekend because I know that one day I'm going to have to explain to one of my kids why the other one gets so much more attention from her than she does. I know Shy won't remember this weekend but I will. Shy didn't do anything wrong. She was just born. If my grandmother is so disappointed in me or ashamed of Shy, I wish she would have just told me or at the very least say they were busy this weekend. Then I wouldn't have wasted the gas money to get down here. Silly me, I thought she'd want to meet her great-granddaughter. I guess I was wrong. I won't make that mistake again. And honestly, if this is the way things are going to be, then maybe Smash doesn't need to come visit anymore either. I hate to say that because he loves it down here and he is really close to my grandmother and I know my granddad would miss him and he hasn't done anything wrong but I'm not going to let any of my family play favorites with my kids. You either love them both or neither of them.

Mother/Daughter Tea

Today Shy and I are spending our afternoon together at the local coffee shop/bookstore. To my surprise, I just looked at the clock to discover we've been here for over 4 hours. The Hubby is at work and Smasher is at my grandparents, so I've really been enjoying my day out with my little girl. I know I'll have to return home soon to start laundry so I can pack for our trip to my grandparent's to join Smash, but for now I'll enjoy the peacefulness that comes with being surrounded by people but to just hang out with the girly. She got tired of sleeping in her car seat so I took her out and laid her on the couch beside me. She looks content to just be lounging around while I get some much needed "out of the house" time.

I love days like today. I know this weekend will be a little stressful as we go to my grandparent's, because A - it's a three hour drive and B - I've not sure how they'll respond to her. They are so close to Smasher and I'm just worried that they'll have a hard time treating her the same. Considering my mom was an only child and I was an only child, they were pretty excited about a boy. But anyway, I'm sure it will be fine. I'm sure my grandmother will take her shopping as she gets older. That was our way of bonding so maybe it will be their's as well. Only time will tell.

Have a wonderful and safe weekend!!!

Seriously!?!

Some people have got A LOT of nerve!!! I'm pissed to say the very least.

So, The Hubby works at the rock wall of a certain physical fitness mecca. He loves his job. He works most of the shifts. Today he was working at the front desk of same fitness mecca. When he was done he went to the wall to climb just a couple of routes. A guy who USED to be a mutual friend of both of us was working. This guy is the "supervisor" at the rock wall even though he only works down there a few hours a week. So, The Hubby goes to climb after he gets off and the Idiot (as he shall now be known) ignores him completely. Even the other climbers are pointing out that he wants to climb but The Idiot won't pay him any attention! Finally The Hubby says that another guy can belay him instead. The Idiot then gets upset and says, "How would like it if I just made it to where you don't work at the wall anymore?" I mean, REALLY!?! This is a guy who sent me a text on Mother's Day wishing me a Happy Mother's Day. This is a guy who has been a complete jerk to both my husband and I since he found out we were dating. Well he and The Hubby have some apparent beef but his issue with me began with when we started dating. We were great friends before that. He was also the guy who decided that he could no longer talk to me pretty much when I got pregnant with Smasher. I could deal with all of that crap, but threatening to do something that could mess with our finances...well, that PISSES ME OFF!!!! I mean, we just had another child. I'm not working and we're both planning on going back to school. I mean, what the crap!?! I know that I should let it go. I know that I should turn the other cheek. But I just don't know how I can actually do that! I'm more mad than I have been in a long time. Who does he think he is? I understand that he is in a supervisory position over The Hubby but I honestly have no idea why he thinks that going on a power trip is necessary.

Okay, Rant over.

In other news...my family is perfect and that makes me smile!

Unexpected but beautiful.

Both of my child have been what some people call "accidents." I call them "unexpected". They are the light of my life but they were, in every sense of the word, unexpected. I never knew I could love anything so much (except my husband) as I do my children. They are the best things that God has blessed me with thus far. It sounds weird to say the plural now, but I'm getting used to it.

Shy is wonderful. She doesn't cry. I actually have to wake her up at night to feed her. And she is so content to just lay in our arms and watch the world go by. She's also absolutely beautiful!

We've had some issues with her weight but after her doctor's appointment today, things look great. No more supplementing. She's eating like a champ. She's only gained 2oz. since Tuesday night which kind of worries me but her doctor seems alright with it. She's a tad jaundiced but that can be remedied with a quick trip to the Farmer's Market tomorrow morning followed with some walks outside a few times this weekend. Thank goodness for Moby wraps. I just need to practice putting it on.

Smasher will be back Monday and I cannot wait! I miss him so much. He is having a blast at the farm though so I'll try not to interrupt buy calling too often. He's too busy to talk to me anyway.

My little girl needs me so off I go! Have a good weekend!

She's here...

Shilo Alivia was born this morning at 7:26am. She weighs 8lbs. 1.6oz. and is 20in. long. She has not as much hair as Smasher did, but still quite a lot and her eyes (if she opens them) are a very dark blue. She is beautiful! And really a pretty good baby. Apparently that was not the case in the nursery this morning though. She was not a happy camper I hear.

So far this has been a much easier experience than my delivery and recovery with Smasher. I think it's because I kind of knew what to expect this time. The Hubby and I got to the hospital at 5am and they started my IV and drew my blood. They then came in and explained the process to us. I was told that The Hubby was not going to be with me during the spinal block and I started freaking out a bit but in the end, I did alright but myself. They started about 7:15 or so and she was born by 7:26. She had an 8 and 9 on her APGARs and The Hubby took her off to the nursery. After being in recovery for about 15 minutes, they let her come to me so she could eat. She was awesome! I've never breastfed and she hadn't either, but we both did amazing apparently! She slept most of the afternoon. She is beautiful and I am so in love.

The last couple of weeks I've been a little concerned that I couldn't love her as much as I do Smasher. It just wasn't possible in my mind. I was wrong. It's insane how I can love both of them SO much. You don't split your love when you have another kid. It just multiplies for not only the new addition but for the child you already have. I love both of my children more than I ever thought possible. The Hubby is absolutely enamored with her and to see the way he looks at her makes me fall in love with him all over again. My family is amazing!!!

Well, my little girl is crying so I gotta go!

Not a whole lot got done...

:/

So my plan today was to get the house cleaned and ready to go for when she got here. However, the only thing I've managed to do is get some laundry done and prep some of her diapers. I hate to say this, but The Hubby is probably going to be doing a lot of work on the house before we get home Wednesday but I'm one of those people who can't have people in her house until it is CLEAN! But regardless of what got done today, it's the best possible way I could think of spending the day before having my Little Girl.

Here's why: The Hubby and I spent all day together today except for a few minutes while he's mowing. We spent all morning just laying around and talking about expectations and how excited we are about tomorrow. We then had to go get something and when we pulled into the driveway I looked at him and said, "I really don't want to go in." So we didn't. We just went on a drive for a couple of hours then went to my aunt's house for fried catfish and potatoes. When we got home, I knew we needed to work so I got kinda busy. But we both agree that although it was an uneventful day, it was the best way we could've spent it. Nothing stressing us out really. Just having fun being married and in love. He's out mowing right now since the yard was looking like a jungle and I'm kind of scared to even think about what it would have looked when we got home. We still have to pack the hospital bag and my goal is to be in bed by 10pm since we have to be at the hospital at 5am. and if I'm up later than midnight, I'll probably eat or drink something and I can't.

Guess I need to get going. Lots to do!

21 Hours, 44 Mins

That's all people. I looked at my countdown clock on my desktop and automatically looked at the days first only to realize that it had a big goose egg. That makes me happy but very worried because we have A LOT to do today.

Yesterday was great and I needed it. We went to the city for The Hubby's mom's birthday party which was nice because I finally got to meet one out of his two brothers (I had met the other one already) and his bio mom, who seems pretty excited about being a Grammie. I really like his family. They're just very laid back and genuine people. We also went to the Green Bambino! FINALLY!!! It's a cloth diapering store that just opened about a month ago in OKC. Of course I walked in and wanted everything in the store but contained myself pretty well. I needed a couple of shells for Little Girl still as all of the ones I have are plain old white and I felt she needed a little bit more variety. I also got Smasher a cover for the night because he tends to leak really badly at night. And a new pail liner and some snappis. I found a beautiful diaper bag and think I will return in the near future to get it plus some swim diapers for the kiddos. On our way out of town we made a stop and I got to see Smasher again for a few minutes. He was running around being a pretty happy kid. I miss him already. His Apple took him to ChuckECheese yesterday and from the looks of it he had a lot of fun.

Well, folks, I'm off to the ra..errr...house cleaning! Since we didn't get much done in the way of cleaning yesterday, today is going to be insane cleaning time! Wish us luck!

Now if I could only wake up The Hubby!